DO YOU KNOW? (IN THE PRISON)

Do you know what it takes?
To be in a place
Where you can't pull off
Where the time stops
And you can't move on
While you see your soul's gone

Do you know how it feels?
To be caught in a cage of steel
Where you can't just fly away
Where its dark even during the day
And you are being smothered
Soon you can't breathe but you aren't even bothered

Do you know how it ends?
To have lived your life in a pretend
Where you can't be yourself
Where you fake so you can delve
And you keep waiting for the moment
When you can stop paying the rent

Do you know how it begins?
To be in a region
Where no one recognizes your face
Where you can't hold the grace
And you wonder if prison was better
But you are lost in the new world and nothing else matters

I FOUND MY SOUL

Something is bounding
Something retrieving
Something I am losing
But still a sense of achieving

Winding up from the guilt of exploiting paramour
A lot I got but still I want more
Wind blows and the truth unfolds
Expected to be sunny but its freezing cold

Living on the edge
I don't need a badge
When young boys in their teen dream of a night stand
Few got a six string and they formed the band

In the times of despair when those words didn't console
Silence encroached and it played its role
I analysed and went deeper in my own soul
I am what i can desire of and that's been my goal

Because I had the urge

I had the urge to walk into the woods deep within
I wanted to explore that beauty kept hidden
Without a clue I headed on
Kept hiking until it was dawn
I came by the pond side
Being surrounded by the fireflies
Hovering over the pond in the hazy flash
Like they are bading good byes to the morning skies

I had the urge to squeeze you in my arms so tight
I wanted to attain the orgasms of the infinite height
Couldn't just guess how you'd response
Still I kept kissing you on and on
Then there was a situation
You weren't under any obligation
You made the space between us zero
The day ended and I was your hero

I had the urge to have a desire
I waited desperately till I was set on fire
Didn't even know what I needed to gain
Kept struggling until I was drenched in pain
All of a sudden I was wandering in your land
I could sense you, that served as a stand
We approached each other and it was just you
That my escaping heart beats were kept due

I had the urge to fall in love
To feel and to sense all above
Never I knew would I make it to you
Yet my overflowing love did flow up to you
When I discovered you were charmed
Extending further, I didn't consider any harm
We were dissolving, rather we were on the roll
Now we exist together as a single soul

I had the urge to set it all free
I didn't care further if its you or me
Without caring for the outcome, I pushed it on
We chased it like grasses spreading by running in the lawn
But we merely ended up in a crash
And we scatterd all over like the ash
Perhaps we were tied by some unseen fate
Our destiny was to be each other's soul mate

Encroaching the brain and rescuing glory

A thing that surrounds and can't escape
Smothering and bound yet I couldn't make
When it was pushing inside and I didn't realise
I thought it was just for a while but it was encroaching my mind

Every part of my brain kept surrendering and being occupied
I was ruled over and served as a slave to the deeds

Needed some revolution to throw it out
When the idea of being ruled over was a doubt
Taken for granted, I was hanged
How it fucked me in the end?

It stole my glory, I assumed was divine
Decided to earn it back, so hard to find

But it was rebounding and the mere idea was enough
Occupying my brain once again
I knew what to do to plant the seeds back
I thought its not bad to surrender, what the heck?

The battle was on once again
I didn't turn up to see until the end
How many soldiers were shot dead on each side
Until one day when I read that story
With my morning tea & toast, I was delivered to glory

WAKE UP OR YOU'LL END UP DREAMING

    It was a bright and sunny weekend and the end of the financial year was approaching. Recession proved to be descenting for his business. He drowned in loss. But the government policies still demanded him to pay his taxes. Due to downsizing he couldn't even manage to afford an employee to perform such clerical calculations on his behalf. So he sat down on his own in his study but not for studying but rather to calculate his revenues, maintaining balance sheets and other clerical works.

    In the mid of these activities, he recalled the days of his glory when his business soared to peaks and how this influenced every social aspect of his life and hailed his reputation, built up his relation with every current minister in power making all his jobs go by smoothly. Then how its downfall permeated his beautiful world in a negative sense. The news of his downfall now overran the town and was stunning.

    While at work he was a rude and terrifying boss. He would often speak harsh to his employees, swear at them. He had all those restrictive policies implemented in his office which were against the welfare of his employees. He was religiously fanatical and offended the employees of other religions blasmphemously. So all his employees were directed against him.
    He was no better at home. Infact he was quite frightening. He would often beat up his children severely or punish them and scold his wife for petty issues. His wife was elegant and stunningly beautiful. Her name was Jessica. She was only one sympathetic with him hitherto. She was the one who had acknowledge his evolution to power and the hard work involved in it. Rather she stood by him in all his decisions but he took no notice of it. He claimed that everything he achieved was due to his own hard work. He didn't consider it necessary to give others credit for their good work. In the midst of all these thoughts, he doze off and while still on the chair he had an afternoon nap.

    He was no longer in his study. He was driving to his office but it was still sunny. He was still unable to make an interpretation of what will follow next. Soon the weather turned up to be thunderous and it was frightening and the street lights died out. It was dark. Then through a beam he saw his bodyguard John, who was shot dead an year ago while he was trying to save his master. He reckoned he was carrying a weapon which was aimed at him and was marching towards him. Soon he realized the weapon he was carrying was AK 47.

    John said in a high pitched voice- "Hello Martin"

    At first he stammered but then muttered slowly, more to himself- "Hello John"

    "How are you, you shrewd git?" said John
   
    "But you were dead?" said Martin
   
    "Yes, I guess the same so. You were expecting me to be dead and lying in my grave while my wife and son are starving. I died saving you. Wasn't it your responsibility to take care of them after I died for you", said John
   
    "But that was preconditioned in the job otherwise I won't have hired you", said Martin
   
    "So for the sake of humanity, didn't you have an urge to help my family in the time of their
difficulties", said John

    "But I sent them a cheque..." replied Martin

    "Oh yes. A cheque worth 5000$. Do you think it is functional in the time of inflation? You are insane. You reckon you did justice to my family?" said John
   
    "You are being alleged in saying so. I sent them gifts and greetings at Christmas and other events?"

    "That didn't serve them quite right, did it? My son is unable to attend college, instead he is working at a mechanic's shop. I am sorry Martin, but your gifts, your help was quite ineffective" snapped John

    "So what will you do now? Murder me?" muttered Martin slightly scared

    "No that won't help my family anyway. Moreover, I was your body guard. I was employed to ensure your security, not to assassinate you"- said John and his eyes were filled his tears.

    Soon Martin was woke up from his dream by the sound of the footsteps of his wife who was coming towards him. She was there to deliver him the evening tea.

    He muttered slightly under his breath apologetically "Sorry"

    "Sorry?" replied Jessica rather in an amusing tone.

    He said-"Sorry. Sorry, for all the injustice I did to you, being harsh to you...".

    "No, its alright. I know it was out of stress that you were on nerves" she said cutting him halfway and the conversation between them went on.

    It was as if the dream which he previously thought was a nightmare, served to be quite demonstrative to his soul and transformed his personality.

    Thereafter, he began providing consistent help to John's family. Later on, he employed John's son who was very clever and provided subtle ideas to Martin that brought about a revolution in his business which attained the heights, the ones it had never previously.

PURSUING MY DREAMS

I pushed so long, so hard to reach
Oh I am streching my hand to get a firm grasp
I am running so fast to be on the sails
So long I waited to be on this voyage

I dreamt of this world, that seems a parallel land
I am stepping inside for the nightmares to end
Somewhere down the line, I tracked the site
Struggling to see what's beyond the might
Perhaps a fortune ahead, waiting to be explored
Cheers of the victory lost in the loudest roars

I stepped in where the crew mates greeted me
They offered me dinner, that served to my hunger
I ate to my stomach's fill
I never had a better taste until

Yet at night, after the evening's wine
A cozy bed, besides the window, from where the stars shine
Overcoming the day's anxiety and what lays ahead
I looked back on time laying cold and dead

Certainly there were time bringing up memories to cherish
But there lies ahead my soul, yet to nourish
And more of the world that had been insane
No better than the flood with the drowning rain

And lost in my thoughts, I doze off
With the arrival of dawn, freshly I woke up
I stepped out in the sun for some fresh air
Greeted by the new faces, all were familiar

After the breakfast they taught me my task
Though never pursued but long anticipated,
I could easily grasp;
Deeply involved, I lost the track of time
I got convinced as I found the rhyme
In a way, I had found my childhood back
I went smoothly as I had the knack

In few days, I was treated as their equal self
I had been into insights, where I delve

At nights we gather for the evening drinks
Sharing their past and the times when they sink
The elder ones turned up to share their experiences
How they fought and stepped ahead, leaving behind the grievances
Abandoning the sweet girl that was meant to be his wife
But all agreed "Time on the deck was time of their life"

Once again in the morning we rowed together
Towards an unseen mission that lies farther

We don't know where our mission lies
Against all the odds, that defies
We gathered the courage to move along
Committed to the goal that we long
Nurturing the crest of the new family,
to which we belong;

So I bade good bye to the yester years
Every step I take is a farewell to fears
With firm determination and sharp vision
I head for my dreams, towards my mission

ANYTHING FOR YOU

   You wanna rhyme

                     and I'll let you sing

   You wanna fly high

                     I'll give you the wings

   You wanna go wild

                     I'll let you in a forest

   You wanna smile

                     I'll make a jest

              I'll be there for you always

   Whenever you're in dark, I'll send in the rays

        If you are feeling scared, I'll embrace

      If you're in despair, I'll give you the faith

                  Just love you always

   You wanna cry out loud

                           I'll amplify your voice

   You wanna have fun time

                           I'll make some noise

   You plan to battle down

                           I'll be your charioteer

   You seek for new ways

                           I'll be your navigator

                    I'll be with you forever

    Whenever you feel lonely, I'll turn you a raver

      If you're stuck with monotony, I'll endeavor

   If you wanna go outlaw, I'll give you the waiver

                  Just be with you forever

PS: I was finding it difficult to select the snap for this poem. My friend Puneet helped me out with this....A big thanks to him!!!

WITH YOU...FOR YOU

I saw you descending down the stairs
Your face so sweet and your cheeks so fair
And your smile that expresses many a things unsaid
And your glittering eyes raised a thunder in my head

I couldn't move further; I felt stagnant
To see your face once again I bent
And to hear your sound's sweetest melody
To see, touch and examine every part of your body

You are the one I ponder at night about
Cause you are the one that makes my heart pound
I wish you will lie besides me one night
All focused and we achieve the orgasms of height

 
I want to fulfill every desire of yours
I will prove that my love is pure
I want to give you the life's sweetest pleasure
Helping you discover its mystery and treasure

CORRUPTION

To the humanity I am the biggest curse
I spread faster than any plague or virus
But anyway I ain't the one that's faulty
Cause you see- Man has only made me

I am fastening my steps, extending my approach
Be it a government employee or a celebrity, everyone I coach
I also solve the state affair as I reach the politicians
You may condemn me socially, but deeply I'll seek your appreciation

Perhaps I am a dirty word that one avoids to use
But I am widely practiced leaving no dues
I alter the judgment from bailiff in the court
I am the reason for polluting the sports

Although I am the reason for killing the spirit of any sport
But I compensate giving rise to many new games...
Sailing with flow in the boat
I am a gamer, I am a gambler
I bait you and I am your preacher

I will greet you even if you plan for higher studies
I will let in there with you, the dirty and the rowdies
I am a short cut method that glitters and attracts
I compromise poor and talented for the rich brats

 
And politicians and sportsmen are just to name a few
Though hidden, but even the common man is on the move
Cause conviction and victimization are the two faces
of the same coin..
Though heading in different directions but competing in same races

I am accused and always on the target
Yet never charged and always put on wait
I move on accelerating through new and a different way
I may land you somewhere, that resembles your goal...
But its apparent and from the real one that's far away

I may take long to be exposed and come in light
And many a times I remain uncovered even at infinite heights
I do harm many but that ain't my concern
Those who apply me assuming an ointment
Beware that I may heel at an instant
But finally I will have to burn

Cause I extend beyond the infinities
I have no peaks and no fixed ways
And the one you are playing your pranks on
May overtake you through a different way(ha ha)

IN SEARCH OF YOU

Despite all luxuries something was missing
Every night i had dreams of you kissing
On my cheeks; Perhaps the kiss was awaited to dazzle
When in search of you i went through a castle

I went on till I couldn't get through and to you
The voices echoing from haunted walls were a boo
I was terrified but more was I desperate
Went on searching for you, leaving rest on fate

I saw your image in dreams but in diminished light
To un-blur that image and see you in bright
I went on being trapped and lured by bait
Seeing your image, I found you are my soul-mate

I loved the times we loved and fought
Living our lives and our dreams, we sought
Finding you I supposed, everything i bore
Your love was a mystery for me, yet to explore

Perhaps my queries took it far too away
I begin drowning as I left the bay
I couldn't realize throughout what's been your role
Unnoticed in rough, you were diamond in the coal

I was a fool, that you had always known
Always summed up my faults, the only cover I had own
All my wounds, did you only heal
But I guess, I always took it as a deal

I sat down reminiscing the time we spent together
When you were only thing to me, that did matter
When I hurt you and gave you the pain
Though you couldn't bear but you never complained

But after you left I realized your worth
You were perhaps the only purpose of my birth
Now I regret on my part for ever letting you go
Couldn't just sense that you will never turn up to show

Without you I wandered around like a zombie
Though previously I just cared for me
But now I am a changed man, killing all my ego
Just to locate you once and never letting you go

I found you in the crowd, cheering out with your allies
Or perhaps in an effort to survive, were you faking that smile?
When soon I found, for the first I was right
Hidden behind your untrue smile, there was a plight

In search of you I indeed found myself
Cause we co-exist as a single soul
Now I revise all my vows to make a greater impact
Together I want to live up our dreams rather making a pact

MY FREEDOM

My freedom is what I strive for
I long for it; being a hardcore
I desire to set myself free
Perhaps to escape or to flee

When I was born, I was tied in chains
I was tortured, given all sorts of pains
I got immuned and so endured
Kept on bearing it without being cured

Now perhaps the pain brought back my focus
I have stabilized cause I found my purpose
I can dare and bear whatsoever the consequence
Cause now I can take a stand with a poised stance

Moving without fear, that the spirits can sigh
Looking into their eyes with head held high
Turned a bruiser that can crush the rocks
Freedom embracing me, vision unpiling all blocks

ONCE YOU FALL IN YOU NEVER COME OUT

Tired of trying to get rid off your past?
Perhaps to come out of it, you'd been running very fast
But the faster your run, the faster it chases you
You are perplexed and wonder what it owes to you

When you simply wanna let it go
Though you come across many who still waited in a row
You may indeed distance it, fastening your steps
The vestige of your soul detaches and drops over there
That clings by you and never let it go
And everytime you look back it turns up to show

Its like a mirror
You'll see your image there
You wonder that you are paranoid
But you'll keep running to avoid

After so many efforts if you still find yourself helpless
Just sit down over there, take a deep breath and relax
Life will go on as it always do
So will your past run, overtaking you
The part of your soul now runs ahead
Once again it reflects your image

Then again you race but not to run away
Now you run to follow and chase
Cause thats the only place where you can see the shade
Thats now what you got to seek in future
Though you gave in to detatch but was always around
And is something that always keeps you bound
Until you found
Once you fall in you never come out

DESPERATE BOYS

P.S. This poem has been fashioned to rhyme in a rap

Girls brought up professionally ain't no more charmed with soft toys
The generation has given them much to exploit, the desperate boys
They make these boys dance to their beats
Once used up, the boy further won't receive any greets
They suck these boys from deep inside
Though these boys can't afford but they still hide

Boys learn to groove and follow the steps
Warned by other boys, they'd say-"Cut the crap"

Just to seek from them a hi or hello
They go on chasing after them like a mad buffalo
Looking at any girl they fall in crush
When friends try to confirm, they deny and secretly blush
They go on sacrificing and trying their luck
To pass some time with them, they'll spend loads of bucks

For once they would even give up their self pride
I guess somewhere their soul has died
After being ditched they spend whole night crying
Thinking themselves to be useless, they feel like dying
Perhaps that is the only purpose of their birth
To serve that girl were they brought down to earth

But these boys are desperate and very determined
They'll say to them "never say die cause its worth giving in"
They once again begin to gamble with their life
They got a longing of being pronounced as man and wife
They have got to make it before its too late
Perhaps an extra effort may change their fate

Something really one has got to pick up from these men
That's their attitude-"I think I can"

Now wake up dumb asses before its too late
You'll end up dreaming while life keep on shutting for you every gate
In the end you'll find there is nowhere you made
And nothing you got, just their bills unpaid
 

SECRET CRUSH

She was dressed in a bright pink top
To the center position did she drop
She must be on a freak out with her allies
They alone were forming many different rallies















Herd of charm where few seductive
But to me she was the most attractive
She was the one most distinguished by
I gathered her eye lashes bowing down in shy

She was just in a glimpse that I could sigh
Though for a moment but my blood rouse high
And thoughts of her didn't shut down that early
To see her in dreams I slept eagerly
Now that I don't see her in my dreams any less
And these dreams won't just go to nothingness

I just don't ponder any rare
To steal her single glance I would do any dare
Her beauty will always remain a mystery
To define her couldn't locate any word in dictionary
Somewhere unturned in pages of my story
My secret crush will soon be a history

PAIN NEVER DIES

You begin your game
At first you lame
To and fro
You seek and go
It develops some pain
Drench in it like you were bathing in rain
You get used to it and endurance turns high
Layered up with pain, initial ones no more sigh
Grown as a part of you, now won't give it a damn
Evolves as if from a tree, it is a growing stem

All of a sudden you strike the phase
Not deviated by pain, somewhere there you locate the ace
You assume its getting dissolved in you
To settle it permanently, you fix the screw
You are on to just seize that moment
To live there, you'll pay any rent
You wish that moment may never end
Strictly its yours and not to lend

The screws are rusted and become so tight
You are sure that it is fixed quite right
You think that it will never come out
Regarding it you won't carry any doubt

Not much time it takes
When it rusts and breaks
Something you couldn't just anticipate
Or maybe you did but at a slower rate

You see the clouds moving away from underneath your sky
Your thirst was not fully quenched, still you were dry
You try to run chasing the clouds
But the rust on your thread, keeps you bound
Then brightly the sun shines
Finally you bade good bye
Hope is still alive, the clouds will once again shower
It does but this time makes the land devour

You lose the game, try detaching it from you
But the vestigial remains of it still lies
Gives no good vibes, rather erupts the pain that never dies

AIN'T ABOUT THAT... BUT BEING YOURSELF

It ain't necessary to have others' view
You just gotta know who are you

It ain't necessary to be socially accepted
You gotta have justifications for how you acted

It ain't necessary to do what others' want
You gotta pursue what you can take on grant

It ain't necessary to do everything
But somewhere you gotta tune well your strings

It ain't necessary to be on the directed track
You must have clue to design your own map

It ain't necessary to always have a profitable deal
Sometimes you should do what you feel

It ain't necessary to grab every opportunity
Sometimes you gotta surrender to your destiny

It ain't about the quality and making it bulk
Its about the quality to make it hulk

It ain't necessary to be superior to others
You should learn to share like you are brothers

It ain't necessary to always have it on goal
Especially when it costs you your soul

SON TO FATHER

I was blessed being born as your son
Learning every little thing from you was a fun
Knowing how to speak and how to walk
All this I owe to you and still there is much to talk

As a child, I might have never mind and known
But now I am grown up and got to be on my own
Grateful that you taught me how to run
But directing me all the way, is not done
Cause it ain’t about what you have planned for me
But all about how I want it to be

I know regarding me you have some dreams
The ones if I live up to, will make you beam
I am indebted to you for bothering about my future
But now it is growing more like a torture
I may be sounding very rude
But this ain’t anyway the truth
Deciding their future, is everyone’s right
So is mine and I’ve got to fight

Maybe you see me standing somewhere distinct
But I won’t go far with it, as there I lack that instinct
And perhaps I will shine but like a moon
With the borrowed light, that departs soon
And I’ve got to shine like the sun
And to illuminate, I’ll myself burn

You were an ideal son;
Lived up to the expectations of your father
Kept your own interests at a bay, rather
Perhaps its been the family trend since the past
But now its time we should make it last

I tried handing over to you, assuming you were right
But now I am so obsessed and it has reached the height
And today, if I hand over to you this charge
It will grow uncontrolled and very large
I would turn to my sons to compensate
To fulfill my wishes putting their on wait

It was your duty to think about my future
So is mine; I too have to let my sons nurture
That today I am going against this prejudiced tradition
Cause somewhere it has to begin for the coming generations

ALL I NEED

I do have the words to speak
But a rhyme is all I need
That gives my voice a melody
Making me sound better and steady
  
I do have thoughts to ponder
But an expression is all I need
That may add to me some rationality
Taking a step forward towards reality

Though I've got many teachers to learn from
But a 'mentor' is all I need
One who can spot out my Achilles' heel
Skills me thoroughly, turning me flawless

Though I do have friends to freak
But a soul-mate is all I need
The one that causes my heart to beat
Always giving me a consistent heat

Though I have passions to achieve
But love of life is all I need
Making me surrender blindly to it
Sharpening my vision, targeting to hit

Though I have got a meaning of my being
But a purpose of life is all I need
Moving for it, so I never turn back
Climbing the heights, gaining what I lack

YOU WERE THERE

To me, it was all a new land                       
None to help, lending their hand  
I wanted to move back, tried to flee                          
But you made up to me, holding me firmly

Every day, with the arrival of dawn, I opened my eyes
Turning them out of the window, expecting something better to sigh                               
But a terrible scenario struck, kept me waiting for night                              
You came to me and my day could pass alright

I wanted to relax at night, laid me down to sleep                                
In the darkness of night, to my bed, I did leap                    
The nightmares haunted and I heard few frightening screams
But you came to my thoughts and I had sweet dreams

On the boulevard, I began creeping          
All began tossing me as I wasn’t leaving                
I had no option left, than to run                                                    
You stood by me, giving me the courage to face the sun  

Walking alone, leery and in deep sorrow
None such, with whom a piece of advice I could borrow                       
I couldn’t survive as I had no ace                        
You were telepathic with me and provided me solace

      
















After getting through, I walked to the hall of fame
Where all were singing praises of my name   
I squirmed along as I was a new face                                                       
Your mere touch stabilized me and offered the grace

Something still I had to search                                         
It was my soul that was on perch      
To somewhere safe and sound, I wanted to land                
You took me to depth, giving me the stand                                                       

BEING TOGETHER

I can see a charm in your face
But that's got to be beautified
I'll add up as a diamond on you
So together we shine and glorify

I can see your eyes are intoxicating
But still you got to pour some wine
I'll further add to your hang over
So together we are lost in a different world

I can realize your words being true
But still you've got to prove
I'll search for evidences and make the claim
So together we'll come out of all the blames

I can see a flash in your soul
But that has yet to be ignited
I'll spark up to put on the fire
So together we'll burn and enlighten

I can feel the magic in your hands
But still you've got to wave your wand
I'll teach you all the spells
So together we'll do some miracles

I can see the pace in your steps
But still you've got to accelerate
I'll give to your game, an ultimate ace
So together we'll run winning every race